The world we live in was built to traumatize us over and over and over again. I have complex PTSD and I have been working on the healing process steadily since 2010 and have healed through the brunt of trauma and I’m working on some clean up healing and integration in the post traumatic growth stage. What I keep coming back to is how much more trauma am I going to add to the pile due to the state of decay in America -- even though I’ve healed through so much already -- what trauma awaits because the world we live in is built to create more trauma and everything we create in the world is based on trauma and from trauma about trauma because of trauma Hurt people tend to hurt other people and that resonates in a deeply profound way.
I wish knew how to break the cycle of global trauma that we are forced to live through generation after generation. Everything that’s going on it’s all because of trauma and it’s all designed to cause more trauma every single day. It feels like there’s no good days anymore and that sense the world is rough.
I’ve never been any less aware of that fact even as a child I was thinking about this as I saw the news that the historic courthouse in Rome, Georgia burning down and my experiences based in childhood drama of what I experienced when we lived in Rome, Georgia. Something healed in me watching the courthouse burning. We lived in Rome from 1981-84. I had this feeling of being othered and not fitting in and it started when I lived in Georgia as a child. That's what's healing. It's healing over my classmates and neighbors called me 'Dumb Yankee' and 'N-word lover' and bullied because I was from the North. This is the place where the KKK almost ran my dad off the road for giving a black colleague a ride somewhere, the place where I had to ask my mom why the Black kids always rode at the back of the bus, the place where Black people were always called the N word. It wasn’t even malicious. It was so natural and ingrained like calling someone Bob. This is the place I lived where I learned became aware at a very young age that I was white but not white enough and definitely the wrong kind of white.
Even if you don’t think you have trauma, I assure you you do, if you live in this world you have trauma you may not have PTSD or you may have varying shades of it, but you have trauma. The largest issue with trauma is access to healing and I readily admit I have had privilege in being able to afford various psychiatrists, psychologists, therapists, inpatient and outpatient treatment, and other alternative treatments. I healed enough that ’m not relying on psychiatric medication anymore.
Do you have to go to therapy and get all sorts of expensive treatments? If you have trauma -yes, but you can also start doing a lot of self work cause that’s part of it like shadow work is part of trauma healing and that’s why it’s talked a lot in witchcraft circles. I did a lot of my healing I did on my own outside of medical professionals and I’ve worked with my spirits and ancestors. I’ve I’ve done all sorts of self exploration, which was a huge part of the healing process.
It’s time we heal and a lot of that healing is going to encompass ancestral healing as well because again we are carrying all of our ancestral trauma with us and we are starting wars and fighting each other century after century. If we are to survive as a human species we have to heal our trauma all of it --that’s it.